A Little Tooo Much...

So, I don't know why I'm blogging again.

Everytime I write something here I think to myself, "Oh My Goodness, You.are.a.tool. Take it down. Honestly, I could be putting it into a journal and it would be much more private and less.... Just less. And maybe that's the point. I want to put it out into the universe, send it away.

After publishing the Fragile post, I immediately wanted to take it down. Does that make any sense at all? I want it there to get it out but I don't want it there because you read this. I'll be honest, whenever people are too honest and emotional and sensitive in their blogs, I just roll my eyes. I'm like ok, you just want attention. That is obviously judgy me doing that, but because I am like that I have this overwhelming fear that I seem fake and I honest to God just want to be really friggin genuine. If I am nothing else in life, that is the one thing I want to be and aspire for.

So this is where I am realizing that I really do care what people think.......

Only, I don't care if people think that I'm crazy, loud, obnoxious, funny, sarcastic, big-mouth, judgy or an idiot; because I am all of those things and those can all be fun. However, I do care if people think I'm wounded, sad, hurt, weak, dishonest, incapable of strength, insecure and basically just an all around cry baby. I don't want to be the cliche walking wounded person. I'm not that person... Not completely.

So I guess it's possible to be all of these things, at the same time. Some are hiding others, but they are still real and genuine. Right?

Tartar Sauce

Boog: Mom can I have a blog?
Me: No way.

Long story short Abby has a new blog. I put a link to it in my Stuff I Heart, it's called Tartar Sauce.

On a completely unrelated note, I have been watching Lifetime all day. ( Shut up.) Anyhow... there is a great show on that channel called Army Wives. It is nowhere near real life, as far as I know Army life to be, but it's great fun watching all that cattiness. Lifetime really is addicting.

Studying

Really hard to do. I don't know if you know this but it is impossible to stay awake while reading textbooks. How do people do it? If you have any tips, by all means, please... HELP ME.

Even though it's not fun to study it is fun to have photoshoot while pretending to study. Abby is the photogapher this time.


















The video from the last post didn't work. I tried like ten times but the thing would not load. Sorry.

That 365 Stuff is Out the Window for Sure.

Uuuuummmm listen... Yeah... Not going to do that.

Whatever... ok.

It's just not going to happen.


So I made a little video of what it is like to do homework with Abby. The actual time was about 30 minutes but I edited it to be less boring.

Ok it's taking longer to edit than I expected so I will edit in or just post it seperately tomorrow. Just think of this as a cliffhanger.

100!!!!

This is my 100th post! I feel pretty good about that. It's taken over two years to get here sooooo.

Today I had a wonderful time thrifting. I only bought a few things. I kept way under $20.00 but still... don' tell Rick. I wish I had the forsight to have taken pictures but alas, I do not. I am getting better though.Pretty soon I will be a veteran blogger that goes around all day thinking of things to blog about.

I picked of two sets of twin sheets that are just perfect for my girls beds. The find of the day was a down alternative blanket that I plan to cover with a cute duvet. There were some really cute bowls and plates to be had but I have to many already so I need to lay off for awhile. I did gat a nice tupperware bowl and lid though.

Forgive the lack of pictures, I am very sorry. Maybe I will edit to add the pictures tomorrow.

1:47 am

ok so I didn't technically get to the blogging for the 6th. But I totally think that's forgiven since I am only an hour and 40 some odd minutes late.

365 days of blogs.

A little dip for fun. It's hard to hold that pose.


Ok Im going to do it. One blog everyday for a year. It's a bit of a challenge, especially for me but I am going to do it. I may even include pictures. Ya never know.





So Happy New Year! We had a good ole time here with lots of spirits, fun and friends.

So Much To Say...Type.

When you have a blog and you just don't want to type what do you do? I don't know what you do but I just ignore it. I have been very much enjoying this Summer. The girls and I took a roadtrip with my parents, I photographed my Sister-in-law's wedding and I for the past few weeks I have been preparing to start school.

The trip with my parents started off rocky and ended quickly. In between that was fabulous. We went from South Carolina, through the outerbanks and then on up to Maine from New Jersey. It was a two week trip. It took us a few days to really get started because my parents had a few things to do in South Carolina but once we got to the Outer Banks we were on a roll.

Before we headed to the islands we just hung out. It was fun.

The Outer Banks of North Carolina are so refreshing and relaxing. My children ran the beaches in their skivvies; we showered in ice cold, outdoor showers; we spent hours digging for shells. Oh and the views! The views and the air were just... inspiring, to say the least.

Digging for shells and building sand cakes.

Wowza! We had sand in the RV for a good week straight. How do beach people deal?

Hatteras Island is where we spent most of our time on the islands. My Mom and I went to the top of Cape Hatteras Lighthouse. Ronnie and Abby spent hours at the beach and came back pooped. The sunset was so peaceful with the sound of the waves rolling in.

I didn't have a suit. My mom thought it was funny so she took a picture.

Impromptu photo shoot at a roadside park in Maine, I think, produced this picture of Ronnie. Very nice posing:)

You can do so much with seashells. These massivos were fun for stacking.

Abby at the boardwalk in Maryland.

Another from the roadside park.

My Sister-In-Law's wedding was really fun. Set in Lodi with kind, fun, lovely country folk. hehe. It was super cute. Kalle, my SIL, was a lovely bride. She was very calm and once the tiara from hell came off her head she was able to enjoy the party even more. Here are a few of my favorite shots:

The bride.

The couple.

The kiss.

The rings.

The dance.

Cake, which was delicious, topper.

Hello... Bridal Magazine eat your heart out ...

This was super cute! All the kids stopped playing to watch the father-daughter dance.

For fun!

Wow! It was really hard to choose my favorites.

What else?! OH. School. I am excited about it. I have so much I want to do and classes I want to take. Woohooo!

Um yeah. How are ya?

I have been reminded many times by a faithful friend that I have not been blogging. I know, I know! So I am making her something to keep her quiet. LOL. Just kidding you.

Last month was real rough on us and the one before that too. What a terrible Winter the whole world had, huh. I'm glad it's over. Spring is so great!

I am looking forward to garage sales and shopping for spring clothes.

Can't wait to open the windows and let the breeze in. I always like to take naps with a breeze blowing over me. It's so comfy feeling.

I finally got one of these.

The girls recieved their swap. Thank you so much Courtney, Maya and Ben.

I sold this on Ebay.

Ella followed me around taking pictures. I won't tell you where I was when she took this one! I look seriously tired though, huh.

Abby's birthday is a week.

Absentee Blogger

I figure there is only so many times you can actually blog about vomit and poop so I will remain absent for a few more days.

Doing Things

I have not blogged in over a week I think. We've been up to no good around here.

Did you know that it's nearly impossible to have a presentable home when you are tearing out built-ins and knocking down walls. My home looks like a cyclone hit it. I was able to catch up on some cleaning today though, because we are supposed to have friends over for Super Bowl Sunday.

I have been watching Ella alot lately when she didn't know I was there. She makes me laugh. She doesn't walk anywhere. She skips ( well not skip, she does that thing like she's riding a pony, that kind of skip), runs or crawls. She loves to have a dramatic enactment of any situation. She will tell me she doesn't like me just so I will pretend to be terribly hurt and she can tell me ever so softly and sweetly " but Mommy, I just don't." It's sound kind of strange but we get a kick out of it.

I have also been thinking about my swap partner and her children. I am really stumped. I want to do so good at this swap thing. It's my first one and I want it to be a hit!

I really have not stuck to my Photography Friday. I think it's something I will have to make myself do. I don't mind, there should be more of those things in my life, like being sarcastic.

I was trying to figure some things out on my camara and Ella decided to grab a few shots. Penny was also interested in the action. Nothing new about that.


My Gramma gave me this blanket and it's ugly as sin if you ask me but I can not throw it out. She didn't make it, someone she knew did but still...


Remember me saying I am devoting this year to Christmas crafts. Here is my start on that. I messed up the letter but it's not bad for just sitting down without any paln what so ever for what I was about to do.




It's all Coming Along Nicely.

Don't Go Breaking My Heart

A few projects in the works at the moment.

Patches need to be sewn. I have them stuck on but now I have to do the sewing around the edges.


Rick has wanted an old lunchbox like this for a while and I found one at a garage sale this Summer. I planned to have it painted and looking good by Christmas but that didn't happen so I am working on it tonight.



Abby and Ella wanted some little books to draw in and I didn't have anything for them so I made little notebooks for them out of regular notebook paper and two divider cards I got out of an old library index thing.



Abby and Ella really like the movie Chicken Little. Don't go breaking their hearts.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N6IYlXozWtc

Lazy Sunday.

Our Sundays are always lazy. It seems to be that even when we are doing lots of stuff around the house, this day still feels like a lazy day.

Today we went grocery shopping. Rick and Ella are napping with the football game. Abby is making me pretend hot cocoa. It's delicious by the way.

Rick got involved in a pool at work. The person who loses the largest percentage of their body weight wins the pot. It's roughly 500 dollars so he is all about being on a diet. This makes me laugh.

I hope you are having a lazy Sunday.

What is IT about self portraits?

Really its my second entry but I think its week three for intros (could be week 4) so i'll just go with that.

Not so long ago I was the girl with the great smile. My best friends boyfriend, at the time, said I had a smile so big that you could see me coming a mile away. I don't feel like that girl anymore, but I do think she's still here somewhere. How do you find yourself in the chaos of life? Where am I? I know I am somewhere inbetween the loads of laundry and the vacuuming the floor. I try to find myself in that small space of time just before filling a cup just before they wake up from a nap. Sometimes I can see a reflection of me in a girl that walks home by herself everyday. All alone but she looks like she has a secret, quietly content. I want to have a secret again.

In reality I am just going through what every 26 year old goes through. I am at a place in my life where I have to figure out who I am. I mean I know who I am but I keep thinking I didn't let myself be who I am. I rushed into being MOM and WIFE. I never would have thought that being a young mother would be this hard on me. I am not an unhappy woman. I don't want to mislead you. There's just this one thing that is not fulfilled. It has nothing to do with my children or my husband. It's about me.What is IT ?

Self Portrait Challenge

So just let me introduce myself

My name is Humpty, pronounced with an umpty. No just kidding. I always think of that song when I have to introduce myself to someone. The pressure of an introducuction. How do you sum yourself up? I have children, I am a proficient but messy housekeeper. I get a little crazy if things aren't where I want them when I want them. I much prefer the mountains over the metro parks. I used to be an interesting person, now I am a silly mother and wife. It's not a bad gig, it definitely has its moments. I try not to take life to seriously. So I guess thats kinda me... in a nutshell.

Oh... if there are any actual readers of this blog, all of this was for my introduction to my new friends at Self Portrait Challenge. It's going to be fun to participate.

It took a few tries but I finally got it uploaded... correctly. Now I gotta figure out the damn button.

How do you decide what to post about?

I have started about 10 different blog entries in the past two weeks and all have been dumped. One was slightly negative and I thought it wouldn't be great to make my blog into a place where I can complain about daily happenings. One was about all my great thrift finds and I scratched that because I didn't take a picture of it all before placing the items in their proper homes. The last was on the joy of parenting and I'm not sure why I tossed that one but I did. I was also mapping out an idea in my head on being a step-parent of a late-teen year old. Looking through my posts it would seem to be that my blog is about blogging.

Still learning

I have been trying to figure out the html codes and where to put it all once I figure it out. It's all very daunting. I just quit from frustration a few times. Anyway, finally I got my pandora music list up. That makes me happy. Now if I could just figure out how to get rid of the gigantic space just below it, or fill it with something. That's two more months worth of work right there. I could just pay to have one made but who knows what people charge for that. I haven't even checked on it, it was just a thought. I feel like I need to add that I am not an idiot, this particular thing is like math to me. It's very confusing until one day it just clicks and then it's like second nature... Still waiting for that click.

Bit of a Rut

I have always fancied my self a photographer, but lately I am losing interest. I feel like I am taking the same pictures over and over again.

That may be because for the last five years the only willing subjects I have had are Guitarman, Boog and Bell.

If I could interrupt this blog for just a second. I would like to announce that my husband will be referred to as Guitarman. My two children will be called by Boog and Bell. If I have learned anything in all my blog research, it is that cute names referring to your husband and children are always better.

I am tired of taking pictures of people is what it is. I need something more interesting, something new. I am going to move on to nature photography. I know, I know... it sounds boring. I am just going to try it. It's not like I am making a career out of it. Geez.

Nature, Here I Come!

Yippy, I have a blog.

Just in case you didn't get that sarcasm.... it's there. So, this blog thing has intrigued me for some time. People logging on, laying out their life for you to read completely anonymously. I have read a lot of blogs in preparation for starting my own and let me just say, there are lots of blogs out there.

There are the mommmies. They breakdown into categories like breastfeeding, cloth diapering, first time mommies, etc. Then there is the crafters. They have the best pages if you ask me. Lots of Home remodeling and restoration blogs for you ambitious ones out there. You get the idea. I am sure there are other not so wholesome and good sites also but you've reached an all-time low if you looking at blogger porn.

Even though I have thought about all the necesities like what my handle will be, how I will refer to my Dh and children, should I tell my friends and family I have a blog, ( still indecided, because ya know, what if I want to talk some shit.), should I keep it to one subject, Etc. I still totally blanked when I had to set it up. It hard to come up with some clever name and url. I sat here for at least 15 minutes going over all things I have been refered to over the past 15 years. Nothing seemed good enough or smart enough and represented me ( yank, yank). I know it's nerdy right. I obviously do not know myself very well if I can't find two or three tiny words to represent the essence of what is me. ( This is where I roll my eyes. Sarcasm, ya gotta love it.)

Listen, all I know is I am a work in progress in all aspects of my life so all I can say is, I am ...

COMING ALONG NICELY